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MISSIONARY JOURNAL – JESUS HEALED ME, LITERALLY

1-24-10 Sunday / 10:30am @ Cathedral of St. John in Laffy

Last week when I met with my spiritual director (Deacon Randy Hyde) I told him a story that he told me to write down……. At the beginning of this month, I was starting to get some seasonal sickness. Included in that was some kind of sinus infection and post nasal drip. Not only was my head cavity in pain, but my throat was in pain from the swelling created by the post nasal drip. So, I’m at Mass on a Tuesday afternoon at Fatima and I think to myself, “God, I know you have much more important things to tend to, but I think I wanna pray for healing of this physical pain.” My head was also filled with thoughts of redemptive suffering and why it was good that I was afflicted.

Nonetheless, I firmly decided as I was going up in line to receive Jesus Body, that I was gonna pray for healing. I don’t know if it was instantaneous or not, but sure enough, when I received the Eucharist, I was healed. It brought me alot of joy not only b/c my physical pain was healed, but I could now personally witness to God’s ability to heal us not only spiritually but physically also. The next evening @ Mission Formation, Mr. Frank Summers told me, as I recounted the story and my hesitancy to “bother” God with my request for healing, to never be afraid to ask for healing. Have faith and trust in God, and let him decide whether or not to heal you. Alleluia!

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MISSIONARY JOURNAL – MENDING FROM BROKEN RELATIONSHIPS

This first part of my 12/14 entry is 1 of 2 pages. Some of it may not seem like it has anything to do with my missionary journal, but i can assure you, anything that has anything to do with my personal growth (or lack thereof) is relevant to my missionary journey. Also, NAMES have been omitted to protect the privacy of others.

12-14-09 Monday / 6:15am @ CC’s Coffee on Johnston St

News to report! For the first time since we broke up back in the end of July, me and (name omitted) actually talked on the phone for at least 15 minutes and had a real conversation. It was a really huge blessing for me. Just knowing that we could talk as friends and knowing that life was treating her good was a good thing for me. The low points of the conversation were A) if felt at times a bit awkward and forced b/c it had been so long since we had talk and b/c the last time we talked for more than 30 seconds on the phone was when we had the “break-up” phone call, & B) I realized I’m still getting over her. It’s not like I WANT to not get over her, it’s not like i WANT to wallow in self-pity and regret. I truly don’t.

I want to recognize the blessing that it was and be able to move on. Sometimes I even feel like I idolize this problem (as I’ve done with other problems) by focusing so much on this “being unhealed” and struggling with it, that instead of receiving healing and moving on I end up using it (the struggle) as a way to hold on.

Back to positives, she asked again about my discernment of joining FMC for Intake 2010. It felt good to have a friend ask about me going into missions. Not to sound egocentric, but I love the opportunity to talk about it and share with others. It helps me to get excited and also by talking about it, it helps me to further discern and evaluate. The main points I touched upon were that A) I didn’t want to work at the shop and take it over, and B) going away on missions would help me to let go in faith and trust that God, on his time, will bless me with the desires of my heart. Last night we didn’t have a lifeteen meeting, and since I had seen my fellow coreteam members Friday and Saturday night for the Christmas parties, I decided to go to 6pm Mass at Wisdom.

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MISSIONARY JOURNAL – IT’S KINDA LIKE THAT SHOW “CHEERS”

Saturday 12-5-09 / 1:40am @ 1st Saturday adoration @ Our Lady of Wisdom

This week was a GOOD week. 🙂 Where did we leave off?…… Oh yeah, Wednesday evening. So, after work Wednesday, I washed my face and brushed my teeth and freshened up at the shop right after we closed. I figured that traffic might be bad and that even if it wasn’t it might take awhile to get out there anyways. It’s a good thing I left straight from the shop. Once I got into Maurice, traffic slowed to almost a standstill b/c of a wreck. The good thing is that I was able to pray for those involved in the wreck as well as the emergency personnel. And as I was waiting in traffic, as well as once I got past Maurice, I had some really intense personal prayer time and felt able to just talk to the Lord and praise him out loud.

That’s another thing I like about being around FMC and the missionaries, is that I’m learning how to talk to God in a more sincere and passionate way. Once I got to Big Woods, it was all good. I saw way too many people to mention all of them by name. I’d describe it as being in that TV show “Cheers” and you get to the bar, and you seem to know everybody… Among the people I chatted with was another one of the Spain missionary girls, Maria Moran. She was so friendly and open to talking about her mission experience. The more of the Spain team I talk with, the more I’m truly impressed with their missionary spirit, as well as their overall Christian attitude. I also got to chat with Lily Hannan, one of the Intake missionaries who had to leave Mexico early. It was good to see her back in the mix and enjoying herself. The atmosphere was abuzz with missionary fervor and joy. Everybody was talkin to everybody, smiling, laughing, and having a good time and enjoying each other’s fellowship.

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